I was looking for a word which will describe my personality as close as possible. The term ineffable essentially means too great to be expressed in words. I have always struggled to speak my mind, often find it hard to communicate verbally my inner feeling as I run out of perfect words. My thought process and the person I am are always emotionally heavy, physically detached and close to day dreaming. This blog will be my attempt to express my internal dialogue into a conscious experiences that are grounded in thoughts and driven by language. This will be the canvas of my life.
Life has been a topsy-turvy experience. From childhood struggle to midlife charm, followed by the recent Day of Reckoning, it feels like an unfair deal all along. My Midnight Dream turned into sighting a Stranger in The Dark. My Honesty Backfired on me. Lack of empathy, materialistic Greed and dishonesty crushed the hope and livelihood of my otherwise relatively happy life. As I walk into next phase of my life, alienated and isolated, I will stay positive, reflect on my past, feed myself all the reminiscence, happy and sad and hopefully be able to navigate through my Lonesome Days.
I was born on the bank of Red Rivers. Grew up hiking the Blue Hills. As a kid, I was fascinated by the snow peaks of the distant mountains and wanted to climb those peaks to see what is there on the other side. Expansive ocean front made me feel insignificant. From rolling foothills of Himalayas to snowy Peaks of Alps, from the tiny river valley of the east to mighty ocean front on west, from Midnight Sun to Polar Night, I’ve been traveling as time permits. To delve into ancient history I’ve been to Ahom, Inca and Mayan ruins. I’ve marveled at the engineering, architecture and culture of Ancient Rome. I have travelled to witness Viking history. My recent adventure was Patagonia. Thousands of miles to go before my journey ends.