January 15, 2025
I was so happy to receive your message. It came from nowhere. I liked what I saw when you said “let’s bury” and “talk about mediation”. I saw a silver lining in spite of all the ongoing humiliation from you and your lawyer for the last 4+ months. I quickly almost forgot all that had recently happened and was hoping we will get into some sort of discussion along that line once I meet you. I was rehearsing many things so that it comes out nice when I speak. It was so great to see the kids and for an hour or so, it was such a good feeling. But then when I asked you about if you are interested in talking about the current situation, you said no. In spite of that when I brought the subject I was told not to try to advise you. And I realized that once again I was fooled. I trusted my heart and did not listen to my head. And I got what I deserved.
Now on, I’ll try to follow my head. My heart has suffered a lot. Now that I’ve been reminded of the reality once again, I think I must tell you few things that has been bothering me for last 2/3 months now. I must express myself. I think you know what exactly you are doing. Because, you really deserve this and more than that I deserve this. First of all, don’t stop humiliating me working with your lawyer as you are doing it for almost 5 months now. I must be threatened, mocked and belittled by you and your lawyer all the time. Tell your well wishing, kind hearted shark lawyer that $75K will not be enough to find my hidden assets. Because I’m so smart that I’ve it hidden it in all over the places that it will take effort worth much more than $75K. And how much is $75K, not much. It only took me a handful years of hard work to save that, big deal!!! My current employer is paying me hidden bonus. I was hiding that from you all these years. Did not your lawyer find that? See, how smart I am. Actually I’ve also real estate investment, may be in foreign land, (India ?) with my equally evil family members. Sorry, I won’t tell you.
Talking about hard work, don’t let that derail your plan to accuse me of all the wrong doing on my part. Don’t mix hard work and accusation. Also, only accusing me of financial abuse is not good enough. Judge will not be impressed. You have to bring more heat into that. It was worse than only financial abuse during all these years. Perhaps, physical abuse too. Remember, I shout at you all the time with name calling. You must thank me for reminding that. Make that a case for verbal abuse. Just a suggestion. Actually add kids also to be the victim of verbal abuse.
As for the kids, make sure they understand that I’m trying to drag them mercilessly into this process. It is so wrong, I must not deserve their presence in my life in future. That will never be fare to them.
Next is about financial control. How dare I stop you from living your life without any access to any of our assets. I’ve been using it only for enjoying myself. Perhaps, you forgot about that. It is only natural that you can’t remember all of it; so many nasty things I did all throughout 24 years. Remember you did not know anything about how many rental properties we have and how much we, sorry I, earned from that and used it for my own amusement. It is not fare at all. Yes, as recently as last month, I traveled through 3 countries to South America. How dare I can think of using, otherwise forfeited deposit, to travel there, spent extra money on one night accommodation and two meals. That money could have paid the spousal and child support for so many months. How can I lie, such a low life!!! Just give a hint to the lawyer, they know how to effectively word it against me. It will only cost an extra few hundred dollars or may be couple thousands. You can pass that cost to me. Lawyer knows how to do that.
While at it, let’s consider few miscellaneous items as well. I must confess that it was wrong to email you, saying in the event of financial hardship we need to think about consulting real estate agent and selling our second home. It is so selfish, how can I even think about it behind your back. I should have known better. Does not matter If I emailed you my thought, but I still started thinking about it behind you. It is very wrong. It must be informed to your lawyer so that I can be exposed.
Regarding the lawyer, how did you find this group of lawyers? I must confess you did a wonderful selection. I guess one of your community friends must have suggested you them. Such a perfect combination. You and lawyers are always in sync and complement each other with your kindness and care for the family. Who cares about a relationship which was 25+ years old? It must be destroyed. It will do wonder for you and you deserve that. More than that I have to face the consequences for all my actions. How could I be torturing you mentally and financially over such a long time. Only you, the lawyer and your great friend circle understand that. They have been watching me for a long time. They know it all.
Are you in constant touch with your close friend circle? Specially all your girl friends, RM, BM(DB), TA and MP. Also SY. Do your boy friends advise you as well? I’m not sure. They might. I know RM has been your well wisher over a long time now. She always advises you regarding your suffering and how to get out of that. I know she also asked you do it not only for yourself but for our kids too. TA and MP take so much care you. Then there is BM. What a wonderful soul. Kids are so friendly and close. Then you have your sisters who are always with you, through your thick and thin. You should never forget their great services and help to you throughout your hard times with me.
I know we have a date, a court date very soon. From that cold December night, when we were married in front of that holy fire to the upcoming court date, a fairytale, perfect book ending. On that court day, you must play it to perfection, emotionally, demonstrating how you have been a victim of my ruthlessness. How your self made successful life is almost ruined because of me. You must impress judge with all your Oscar worthy acting. This will be a great opportunity to start nailing my coffin. Don’t try to get deceived by my side of the stories. Those will be all made up. Remind yourself all the time that day that I was never honest in what I did.
So far, I’m only telling you about my wrongdoing. It will not be fare if I at least do not talk about your act of kindness towards me. Unlike me, you have been so kind and supportive of me all throughout in spite of me being the worst person. That only highlights your greatness which must not be ignored. You are so good and well planned at everything you do. Before moving out, during my absence for a month or so, with your cool head and grand heart, you so accurately evaluated my life. You also planned my financial well being for the days ahead. I found that you were so gracious while measuring my worth to couple containers of rice and lentils, one household garbage can, used shower curtain and used shower towels, bunch of plastic hangers and lots of old recycled containers from before. I felt indebted. I’ve kept few pictures of these things so that I don’t forget your act of kindness and what I am worth of. This will be a daily reminder to myself.
I am feeling so ashamed for all my wrong doing that I don’t have courage to list here all other nasty things that I did. By the way, I have to plan much more tasks in the near future to hurt you and the kids, like how not to pay the agreed upon supports. Because that’s my personal trend. I forgot that I must pay my dues first and you can then think about adjusting, some of the shared dues, if you find it appropriate. Actually that is a perfect technique to bankrupt me. Actually it is working so well that after this month, I have no money to pay my daily bills. You always wanted to match or be earning higher that me in the family. Actually after paying supports you will be earning much more than me. You have fulfilled one of your dreams now. I am financially strangled as I should be. Well done.
So, you must act fast and stop all these now and forever. Talk to your well-wishers, family and friends and also the kind-hearted lawyer and bring me the list of things that you need from me. I am ashamed, I will sincerely try redemption and will not have any problem granting your all wish. I promise, trust me for the first and last time, I’ve learnt my lessons. If I don’t oblige drag me to court at every opportunity you get. You also have the option to punish me enough that I may not even deserve a roof on my head and daily meals to live in future. Kids must be told all of these so that they feel angry enough not to hear even my name in future. Please make sure that. Sorry, how dare can I advise you. I can’t help because I must make sure that I have paid the price for my past. So, allow me one last time to advise, please!!!
Finally one request, if I may. Please be kind enough with your grand heart to allow me to be the stranger forever with no string attached. Please free me. I bow and beg my freedom.